Week 12

Well, so far this week absolutely SUCKS! Thomas is doing good, but Mommy had to go back to work Monday. I cried myself to sleep on Sunday night and cried all the way to work Monday and for about 30 minutes when I got there. I at least got to take a long lunch to come home and visit to see Tom's beautiful smiling face and hold him and kiss him. I thought I did a little better after that, but then cried on the way out the door Tuesday morning as well. Who knew this little being could change absolutely EVERYTHING so quickly. Thomas has a bit of a cold and isn't feeling that great, plus with the adjustment of getting up early, he has been having some cranky days. The one bright side in all of this is that Daddy is taking care of him all day and working opposite shifts from Mommy until we can get him into daycare at the end of February, so at least I know that someone who knows him is taking care of him and loving him all day in my absence. It makes it a little easier, but I'm still having a VERY hard time. There's nothing like the joy of seeing his smile and hearing his little voice. Everyone keeps telling me that it will get better - I certainly hope so. Until then, it's going to be rough sailing, at least for Mommy.